Hi, I’m Belle. Thanks for stopping by. Here’s a list of ten things about me:
1. I want to write, but rarely do it. This tortures me daily, and, unless I seek to remedy it by writing more often, will continue to torture me until my dying day.
2. I worry: about hate, about greed, about selfishness, about the state of the world my children will inherit. I worry about what people think of me. I worry that this makes me shallow. I worry about things happening to my loved ones. I worry how I would cope. I worry that this makes me selfish. I worry that worrying will send me to an early grave. But I’m so good at worrying that I also wonder what I would do if I wasn’t worrying. Probably more writing (see point 1)….Oh.
3. I see myself as two people (though, as far as I am aware, I am not technically schizophrenic): a) the fancy dress loving party girl, who loves nothing more than having fun with her friends, because she has seen through her own experiences that life is short, so why not enjoy the ride? b) the more serious and reflective person who wants to learn and to help people and to find her higher purpose (I suspect it is also she who really, really wants to write). Sometimes these sides are conflicting (since having a baby even more so, for obvious reasons). Fortunately they are in total agreement when it comes to chocolate, red wine and travel.
4. I don’t see myself as an ardent feminist, but the older I get the more frustrated I feel by the societal view of women and ageing. Marching towards the metabolically displeasing age of 38 I hate the fact I am made (and have let myself be manipulated) to feel that my fertility is now teetering on the edge of a clifftop free fall, and that if I want a second baby I should really just get on with it. Because what I actually want to get on with is completing my Master’s and setting up my coaching business before we try for another.
5. The older I get, the more I realise that you are never too old to love drum and bass (whether you are ever too old to publicly dance to drum and bass is an issue I am currently grappling with). Ditto UK garage. I will never be ashamed of these two great loves. Never.
6. Speaking of great loves, I have two: my husband, who (sickening as it is) completes me, and Leonardo DiCaprio, whom I have loved since I first laid eyes on him as Romeo to Kate Winslet’s Juliet, and will love until my dying day (likewise the husband, all being well). As much as I like Kate Winslet, I will never forgive her for leaving him on that door. There was definitely room for two.
7. I am riddled with self doubt, and have a serious case of imposter syndrome, previously in relation to my 17 year PR and Marketing career and now in relation to my new career as a coach. I have never understood how anyone could deem me capable of running their campaigns, let alone encouraging them to achieve their goals. The lack of complaints would suggest I haven’t ballsed it up so far. But there’s still time.
8. Infinity and death frighten me senseless. I can’t even talk about the universe without breaking into a sweat. I need to believe in life after death because death CANNOT be the end. I should probably have some (more) counselling to address these issues.
9. If procrastination were an Olympic sport, I would win Gold, Silver and Bronze (to give an example, I sat down an hour ago to work on my new novel, and instead have been updating this bio. I refer you to point 1. Sigh).
10. I make more lists than Buzzfeed. When I die, besides having Oasis’s Champagne Supernova played at my funeral (deep breaths – see point 8), I should probably have a To Do list inscribed on my headstone for when I reach the other side…
Love why you’ve started this blog! Inspirational!
Please check out my blog and let’s follow each other! 😉 xx
Thanks! Will do!
Not sure if I replied to your comment, if yes, ignore, if not, thanks! 🙂
How goes the challenge?
Hi, and thanks for commenting. I managed daily posts in 2013 but am struggling to post that often in 2014 as I have a number of other writing projects underway. Posting on this blog is more like therapy for me these days – I come here to get things off my chest! 🙂
Hello Belle! very nice blog.. keep posting everyday! thank you so much for following!
Thanks so much, it’s comments like yours that spur me on!