I can’t put my finger on it exactly, but there’s something amiss in my world at the moment. Possible reasons are:
a) The weather (if in doubt, blame that)
b) My best friend moving to San Francisco next week (I’m excited for her but will miss her tremendously – just thinking about it makes me well up)
c) Lack of exercise – after months of marathon training it’s now been over 6 weeks since I did any exercise due to my training-related back injury, so the endorphin supply is running low
d) Lack of sleep – probably due to all the other reasons, but in recent days my quality of sleep has dropped dramatically, and I’ve noticed when my alarm goes off I’m often slap bang in the middle of a traumatic /stressful dream, which doesn’t get my day off to the best of starts
e) My overdraft, which is once again getting so large it’s scaring me
f) Pressure to succeed in writing (see point e, though this is about far more than just money, it’s about realising ambition – or not, as the case may be)
g) The onset of wanderlust (which may or may not be related to point b)
h) A combination of all of the above (most likely)
Whatever the reasons, I’m feeling out of sorts and stressed, and I need an action plan to ease me out of the doldrums. That plan is as follows:
a) Hmm, not much I can do about the weather…
b) Not much I can do about the friend moving to the US either…Oh dear…
c) Aha! Here’s one I can work on! Lunchtime Pilates class booked. Let’s see how that goes…
d) Earlier nights. Switch off technology, have a relaxing bath and go to bed with a good book. This approach I shall trial tonight.
e) Stopping spending is the obvious one, or moving out of credit crisis London? Neither looking all that possible in the immediate future…Stop eating perhaps? Become a Breatharian?
f) This one’s obvious: Write more. And believe in myself more. Also maybe give up sleeping and socialising as well as eating in order to find time to get my writing where it needs to be.
g) I would say go travelling again, which would certainly address point a), but since it would do nothing to help point e), in the short term I’ll just have to settle for booking a (very) cheap weekend away in the UK to keep the wanderlust at bay.
I’m so glad I decided to write it all down. Just a few ‘small’ lifestyle changes and I’ll be back on an even keel before you can say ‘it’ll never work’….